"The Gay Guy" (That feels better) I Said it

The first person I struggled to come out to was myself. I remember thinking that something was different, but it's hard to say if that was just normal feelings that everybody has or if it had something to do with me being gay. When I was in year 8 it was mostly a sexual thing. I would get turned on by things that would make me ashamed. Some how I was able to find a friend during this years that would understand me, at least somewhat. His name was Joe and he was my first crush.
It wasn't until year 8 though that I started to consider that I might be gay.I convinced myself that if I looked at enough naked men I could become immune to being gay. I would spend hours and hours exhausting all the free male pornography I could find.A few months after that, and probably because of it, I became much more laid back and sociable. I found myself having friends every where I went and since I actually was being social people started asking me personal questions and that’s when I started becoming known as a “gay guy”. But it’s all cool I don’t really mind it, lol because I am a gay guy.

Coming Out To Myself!

I WALKED ALONE...
I walked the streets alone and cold.
Wanted someone to hug me, Someone I could hold.
I walked the road alone and afraid.
Of what I had done. 'What had I just said?'.
I walked a path alone and confused.
My thoughts all spend, My feelings used.
I walked down a hall alone but true.
That's when I met friendship, That's when I met you.

I am trying hard not to kiss you.
I am trying even harder to not be with you.

I keep on covering my heart with lies.
Smothering it, I don t know why?

I need to tell you that I am attracted to the same sex.
Will you think of me any less?

I need to free myself and find peace.
I need to try and understand all of this.

I just want to be accepted like anyone else.
To be respected and not shadowed in doubt.

I need to come out
Even if it is to myself.

Comming Out

Ok, here's my deal. I'm really like, fine with being gay I'm actually FINALLY accepting it and it's like I feel better about it. Well anywho, I'm really wanting to tell my little group, because, all my life I've had the 'gay' rumors around and stuff, but always denied it, (kinda still going to until I feel comfortable) but now, being in unlimited with different friends it all feels different.

So anywho, my friends, they've trusted me with SOOOOOOOOOOO much like, some of no one would suspect or anything, and I've shown my loyalty and they've given me so much trust and gratitude and shown that they've sincierly care. (well one, it's a diff storiee but i'll go into that in a few.) and like, something inside is telling me to tell them they'd be a little shocked because, I've like denied it for the past school year since they've met me. But, now, I'm just like slowly feeling this need to just BE FREE! (w. them) The girls, are the ones I'm not too worried about only a little but not much, but the guys, mmk here's where the one that's different comes in. He's befriended bi guys in our school, one of them is only just a school thing, one..idfk about him, but he's what i say is the media gay, where all emos have to be bi or w.e. and he doesn't act different around him, or any of the others. and he does the little sexual gay jokes with friends and stuff, and he's never shown any serious (to my knowledge) hate against gays and all. But, it's just like I want to tell him ,but I'm nervous that he'll change his entire self around me because, all the touchyness or my personality period or just being there would cause discomfort. And, I've grown a little attachment to him so if I lost him as a friend it'd hurt, (i know lot to say for a couple of monthes but it's just a lot of the making a friendship.) He's trusted me with a lot too and I've prooven myself to be a good friend to him he says, but it's like saying and doing are two different things and I'm scared as hell to say anything to him. Well I hope that I can just have a good summer break and enjoy things, but first christmas.

I have always felt this way

Since I was a child I have always felt that curiosity for the male body, and while I was a few years younger that curiosity just grew and grew. At first I thought of it just as that, curiosity. I came to check gay porn and I continue to do it, it just turns me on more than "normal porn"

But I wanted to experiment, check other guy's bodies, see them nude, have sex with them. I had oral with someone and liked it, probably want to do it again.

I don't remember exactly when I first knew I was gay, but I do remember that the thought of sex with other boys always excited me.
But I really knew that I was gay when puberty began. I felt an attraction toward the other boys and I was curious to find out what they were like.

I think am gay No!! I know I am GAY!!!!!!!!!!!

My earliest sexual memories date back to when I was 12. I remember staying up late watching our non-existent porn channel trying to catch a nipple through the static. This turned me on and I masturbated to it. I also discovered porn at this age, and from the ages of 12-15 I masturbated to gay porn. One night, I was at a friends house. We were daring each other to show ourselves on his webcam, and finally we both did. We masturbated each other that night.. along with other guys.

When I was younger,
I saw a house burn down
And I walked past it every day
for the next six years.
Derelict, Black, Chalky and Dangerous,
I wondered if squatters lived there?
There weren't any parties though
cause they were shit
After a while, the council got round to tidying up the town
making it less offensive here and there
they said it was an eye-sore,so they tore it down.
Behind the house, there was a wall with some crappy grafitti
and the word cunt written on it in massive letters.
And now I walk past that.

Don't you want to share the guilt?

I Won't Be Crying

I have been going with this new guy Jack. Ya know....its amazing because there is always one thing I am right about...with every guy there is always a catch no matter what....no cell and not being on time...yea that is what I am dealing with right now. He is a great guy and loves me to death and worships the ground...but sometimes I wonder...if he really puts me first in his life...He always says maybe to things...never yes or no to the "Are we going to hangout tonight?" question. And with him maybe usually means no b/c SOMETHING always comes up and I am getting sick of it...but maybe one day we will hangout...I guess if I love him I just have to deal with it....I just can't forget about Joe. He is always with me where ever I go and what ever I think about. I don't think this thing with Jack is going to work out.

The Kiss

He thoughtfully pulls his hair back from his eyes, allowing me a better view of them. I drift into their abyss, losing myself in them. The sensation driving all reason from my mind, nothing else matters. His lips part, and a single word slips out; my name. His soft voice sends a shiver down my spine, his intense stare, giving me he chills. I lean in, my lips parted slightly, he does the same. His lips are perfect; they look so smooth, so soft, so welcoming. My eyes close, our mouths touch, warmth shoots throughout my body. He is shaking a bit, and he withdraws slowly. My eyes open, and lock with his. There is a glow of fiery passion in his eyes, his very want, his need showing through. He lets out a soft grunt, the sound of a caged animal, wanting more of the long awaited meat. He leans forward, more quickly this time, and forcefully pushes his lips against mine. I surrender, allowing myself to be pushed onto my back. The cold cement floor forces my back to arch into his warm pulsating body. His warm tongue probes its way into my mouth. the sweet flavor of his mouth sends my heart into a frantic race. I pull myself closer to our already touching bodies, pure carnal desire pumping through both of us. He violates very crevice in my mouth. I inhale with surprise as he drives my back into the cold floor. The feeling drives a moan from my throat sending him into a primal frenzy. he thrusts his body into mine and educates me of his now tighter pants. I wrestle his tongue until he retreats, I eagerly follow. The hot wetness of his mouth is intoxicating. I run my fingers through his soft hair and pull him down into me. I drag my tongue across his bottom teeth and bite his wet lower lip. I slowly let it escape from my teeth and come back up to met his moist swollen lips. I push into them and inhale with exhausted pleasure. I rest my head against the ground and look up into his face. He opens his beautiful eyes. He deeply looks into my eyes and smiles. He sighs and quietly says "wow", as I drag him down for more.

Gay virginity (con't)

Many young gays use the old penetration rule used by heterosexuals. The problem is that not ever gay guy is going to be involved with anal sex. It’s possible to consider blowjobs and mutual masturbation as the loss of virginity if you’re not going to do anal sex. But why couldn’t someone just have anal sex and consider themselves a virgin if they don’t participate in oral sex and mutual masturbation? It seems absurd, but maybe we only consider anal sex closer to an actual act of sex because it represents the image of sex that straight intercourse portrays. Sexually stimulating someone else’s body with our own may be enough to be considered sex since all sexual actions are the same at the very core: sexual stimulation.

Maybe gay people should have many gay virginities; anal virginity, masturbated virginity, and oral virginity. You could give all your virginities to that special someone or give one to each of your three favorite lucky guys. I’m not a virgin myself, so I might need to decide how my virginities are given away along with all the other virginal guys out there.

If multiple virginities don’t catch on that’s okay. I have a backup. Losing your virginity might be like having a white pair of pants. You have oral sex and the pants gets stained red. The more you do the more red stains you have. It might feel awkward wearing a pair red stained pants. That’s a lot like how it can be awkward transitioning between being inexperienced and gaining that experience. After you’ve done everything though you’re more confident sexually. That white pair of pants is fully dyed and stops being stained; it simply becomes a beautiful red pair of pants and ever new experience makes it a little richer in color. That's why I were RED pants.

Gay virginity

Penetration makes you lose your gay virginity. Unless you never want to have anal sex. Then it’s blowjobs and mutual masturbation. You might change your mind and decide you want to have anal sex later on though, in which case penetration is your new virginity even though you lost your last virginity because it doesn’t count anymore now that you want to do more. What?

I’ve seen people use the concept of gay virginity to seem more experienced. I’ve also seen it used (more frequently) to make themselves appear pure and innocent. It all depends on how they word their experiences. Maybe the whole ideology behind being gay and a virgin doesn’t hold; the whole concept is too unstable.

Traditionally virginity has been used to capture the image of straight couples getting intimate for the first time but ever since gay culture came out of the closet us queers decided that we too wanted that special moment. Did we think it through? Maybe realizing that we’re gay, coming out, and entering the gay community are enough special landmarks to let us give up virginity. But we could never do that. The idea of a cute young virgin just can’t be shaken as one of the hottest sexual encounters and in the gay world that means it stays. How could we give all that up just because the lines are blurred a little when determining exactly when that cute young virgin actually loses their virginity?

Always on my mine Joe

I was fourteen and you were fifteen
when you took aim and shot your arrow, penetrating
deeply into my body
and making it so
I could not continue
without you inside me.

In clumsy, masculine bodies we could barely control,
stumbling in the pulsing, tingling dark,
feeling our way around corners and obstacles
where we could barely breathe,
and where I went,
you sacrificed
and with a handsome smile, calmly followed.

In surroundings familiar to me but
strange to you,
we made the best
of it and painted
marks of war
on one another’s faces,
brothers-in-arms determined
to survive a tour of duty
in a place where our love
was foreign
and unusual.

Your scholarly transformation
was my education, and as you became wise and strong,
I learned
I could share my burden
and you, surprising even yourself, could carry
the weight of our world.

Now, when I think back to that town,
you are as much a part of it as I,
and as we walked away toward the fire-streaked sunset,
I asked,
and you said yes.

We are together the architects of this
great skyscraper
which at its highest point
touches the horizon
so that there is no distinguishable ending to one
or beginning to the other.

It feels better to write it down

ok, me and my friend were at his house one day and he brought up that he read that alot of tean boys do stuff with ea other.... i didnt know if it wus true but he then asked me if i wanted to try it out... we did and then we started doin it like 2-3 times a week.... we both rele liked it... we blew ea other and jacked ea other off and tryed 69... his wusnt as big so i let him and it felt sooo good.....i almost came while he wus doin this....

when I met this guy, we had this connection. He just made me feel, safe, accepted, good. He was also ( the leader kinda).

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It helps to write it down

The start of the time that I began to realize that I liked boys, and that I liked the thought of naked boys in the same way that other guys liked girls. I don't think I knew that that meant that my sexuality was "gay/homosexual" then , though I certainly realized I was "different". I guess I figured out that "gay" was the correct term for how I felt at a later time, and I don't actually remember when that was.

Have always loved watching boys and their manhood in porn, so yummy to watch the happy ending. Wanted to taste it when I was younger, but never wanted to admit it to myself.

Recently I have admitted I mostly want men, When I can find a good boyfriend. It is so helpful, its great knowing I don't need to regret or feel bad about being open and doing 'gay things' with myself, like tasting myself. I love it now and can't get enough of it! yummy

I think my whole consept of sexual idenity was way too vauge to recognise it. I think I slowly began to realise around 10-11 but i didnt realy identify myself as bisexual because I had no idea what that was. Then It hit me. My friend dared me to look up porn, so I did. I was probably wayyyy to young but who would suspect me? Anyway I typed sex, looked, thought: thats alright but not all that exciting. Then for some reason i typed gay sex, looked thougt: WOW i like this! gay/straight, now I consider myself as gay.

I had just entered middle school, and there was this really cute boy on the bus I rode. He was the first person I had ever had a crush on, and I really wish I talked to him more.
I've never really been attracted to girls in the first place, and I can't see myself being with one...

Talking about it helps !!

Homosexuality is slowly becoming more accepted, even to the point where there are days to celebrate homosexuality.

However I must stress, you can not change who you are, you being homosexual is not something you can decide one day not to be. You'll find a lot more gay people in your area than you might think, so if nothing else, simply take re-assurance in that you are not alone.

Even if you try to live a straight life your still gay. i dont care what people say you cant just stop being gay.

and no. i obviously dont think that there's anything wrong with it at all.

I dont think it matters what sexual orientation a person has. they are still a human being and can be a perfectly good and decent person. i think people should take more notice of who somebody is, rather than what they are.

Problems Problems everywhere !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My friend and I have experimented together. We masturbated each other, rubbed our penises on each other, etc. I really enjoyed it and hope to do it again. I've read that same sex stuff is common. I feel what we have done is okay? I've fantasized about oral sex with him, is that okay to try. I am sure we are both virgins.



I have a very embarrassing problem, I keep getting erections several times a day and I have no control of them. I get them in the showers. Is this normal ? is there anything that can be done to stop me from having them?

Is this Ok ?????

I am 15 and masturbate sometimes three times a day -- is that normal and what can I do to stop? Also I have masturbated with my friends and when I ejaculate it is not even close to the amount they ejaculate. What is the normal amount?