It helps to write it down

The start of the time that I began to realize that I liked boys, and that I liked the thought of naked boys in the same way that other guys liked girls. I don't think I knew that that meant that my sexuality was "gay/homosexual" then , though I certainly realized I was "different". I guess I figured out that "gay" was the correct term for how I felt at a later time, and I don't actually remember when that was.

Have always loved watching boys and their manhood in porn, so yummy to watch the happy ending. Wanted to taste it when I was younger, but never wanted to admit it to myself.

Recently I have admitted I mostly want men, When I can find a good boyfriend. It is so helpful, its great knowing I don't need to regret or feel bad about being open and doing 'gay things' with myself, like tasting myself. I love it now and can't get enough of it! yummy

I think my whole consept of sexual idenity was way too vauge to recognise it. I think I slowly began to realise around 10-11 but i didnt realy identify myself as bisexual because I had no idea what that was. Then It hit me. My friend dared me to look up porn, so I did. I was probably wayyyy to young but who would suspect me? Anyway I typed sex, looked, thought: thats alright but not all that exciting. Then for some reason i typed gay sex, looked thougt: WOW i like this! gay/straight, now I consider myself as gay.

I had just entered middle school, and there was this really cute boy on the bus I rode. He was the first person I had ever had a crush on, and I really wish I talked to him more.
I've never really been attracted to girls in the first place, and I can't see myself being with one...